loneliness is a virtue..
4 some time now..esp since i have come back to the coll..
with not many ppl arround ...
lonliness acts like a discipline i guess..atleast 4 me..
u do things on time n r able to give more time to everything..suddenly u have more hours...
n ur work gets over faster... sighs..
things like breakfast which u had never done in 4 yrs...are a must now...so that u can kill some more time..at a different kind of activity..
workin out...n that too in the mornings... when at a time u didnt find the time to go gym...be it whatever hr of the day...
life if seen by 2nd person looks really organized...coz u spend time organizing it...
this.. the organizing part..in itself is such an activity..that u give it enuf time everyday...in my case even 2-3 times a day...meaning..everyday ...3 times i spend thinkin... what i have to do 2day..interesting... ;) kills a lot of time..
esp coz i ..like most guys...niormal guys have rissen frm the ashes of inorganization...total chaos was my style dude..
wud wear the same jeans every day 4 ..dunno when..
coz....didnt find another..n who wud ...whats the diff mate..this jeans or that..
both unwashed..
but yeah..lonliness has made me believe.. that its possible to live like most humans ..ie non nocturnal ppl..the daytime is not such a bad time...
n yeah work..u actually find time 4 work..n u put a lot of effort into it...
the other day...sittin the lab since 10 in the mornin..havn taken a brk only 4 lunch...at 7 i thot of takin a brk.u know..the worked all day ab i deserve a holiday type brk...
but me ..of all hardworkin ppl in the world..{ ppl close 2 me know that i wud do nything to just u know..stay away frm the smallest of works given 2 me...justification..doesnt interest me..y shud i do it.. :-p ..}
all d same..i ...was not able to leave it n go...no it was not that i was workin on something.. that wud revolutionize the world..of avert a world war.. simple...readin pprs n workin on a design..
cudnt ..coz..thr was nothin else to do..literally.. so ...work it was... :(
good 4 me i guess...
yeah u realize things..which otherwise only god himself cud have convinced u...
that.. in my case.. that i can work...phew.. :-o
n that too effectively u know..
ask me to plan anything ..whatever that b..i ll come up with the best of plans u know.. n options which will just all b real good...
may b real stupid also once in a while..
but the point is that i was never good at execution..
u c ny work can b divided into 2 parts...
plannin n execution...
the problem with the execution part is that..it requires...what shud i say.. non-laziness as a virtue in u...n more importanly requires u to EXECUTE ur plan...
to execute requires to..work...that same word agn..
thats whr i wud u know.... sit back n like to c ppl work..mostly to draw inspiration...to work..but by the time i had enuf inspiration n was ready 4 perspiration..it was over..
so not entirey my fault at things...
but now things r diff...
u c..rite now also..work callin..gtg dudes.. ;)
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1 comment:
i agree with u on many things here ... wen you are lonely ... you actually have a lot of tym to think ... tym to plan ... n more than anything else ... u have all the tym in the world to work ... coz theres nothing better to do ... n even otherwise ... wen u r tired of working ... u actually end up planning your recreation as well ... like u said about the gym thing ... it was like that for me wen i had gone to iitb ... it is different ... as in u do miss everyone ... like i missed college ... but am not too sure ... i really wanted to b back ... so it is like that i guess ... as in ... it is nice in its own way ... i guess everything has something to offer ... so thats wot loneliness has ... !!
nice blog entry ... well written ... n nice ... !!
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